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Brief Encounters

First I would love to say Thank You to all of those who responded to my last entry.  It means a lot to me to hear your encouraging words. 

 

Brief Encounters

Toothbrush, toothpaste, clothes, panties, deodorant…. Check, check, check…. Okay do I have enough money for gas. I need to leave in twenty minuets. As I pack for a weekend away from home I am sad for Josh and excited to see Julie. I have to go pick up Sydney from school. I rush to get the car pack… finally the last thing is done and the house is clean, and there is food Josh can make for himself to eat. I hop in the car and I am on my way. I drive through town towards Sydney’s school, on my way I pick up snacks and fill up on gas. Nothing on my mind, I just sing along with the radio. … His Mrs. Daminco how was she today I ask her teacher. She was good today but we still need to work on some of her behavior. I buckle her in the car and then get myself situated I am ready to get out of here. Sydney, are you ready to see your mom I ask her as I merge onto the highway. I know that I have three hours until I will reach my destination. I am trying to find things that will fill the time. She answers back, yeah I love my momma and Cassie. I say, yes I know you do. Take a nap and we will be there soon. I turn the radio back up and we both sing along with the song. Unfaithful by RR is playing. LYRICS How true is that song to my current situation I begin to think. My thoughts are interrupted by my phone ringing. It is her. Hello, … The conversation is comforting and it pushes all my guilty feelings away. As I pull into the drive way, Cassie runs up to the car to greet her big sister. Melissa begins to talk and all I can think about is the second I can pull out of her driveway and into Julies. …. I see her house and she in the yard waiting on me. I climb out and she engulfs me with a hug. I miss you I whisper in her ear, I miss you too she replies. Are you hungry, she ask. Yes, starved I reply. …. Back home and the night is still young. We walk in the door and no sooner that the doors shut behind me I kiss her. I can no longer help myself. I prance on her as if I were a lion and her my pray. Rough wild, the best sex I have ever experienced in my life. I have never had so many orgasms in my life before. I rub my hands up her body and across her breast. A women’s body has never looked so good , has never felt so good, has never been so right until this very moment. I brush my face up between her breast and begin to kiss her neck. Kissing her on the mouth, ears, neck, shoulders….. I slow down and look at her, I can not believe what I am doing. Slowly down, down, down, kisses, kisses, kisses. I can hear her moaning, smell her perfume, feel the warmth of her body against mine, see her face and all her beautiful nakedness, and taste her sweet kisses. This is what ecstasy is I tell my self. . . . I am so exhausted I roll over lying naked beside her naked body, look her in the eyes, the words escape my mouth, I hear them but they sound bizarre to me, like I am outside my body hearing them from a stranger, I Love You. She says it back. I struggle to stay awake keeping my eyes open, I want this moment to last forever. The soft bed beneath me is comfortable, and with her arms around me I fall asleep.

 

 

 
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Home wreaker

Home wreaker

"You should move in with me…." "What?", I exclaim. "You should move in with me at the end of the semester.", she says again. "Ummm, Okay, I have to think about it." I quickly gets off the phone and a number of thoughts fill my head. My marriage……. Five years…….am I a lesbian…… do I love her……Sydney…… school…..my mom and family will not understand….. Confused I go about my day pondering and seeking others opinions. My conclusion is: Do I want to stay with Josh because I love him or its comfortable? Because it is comfortable. Do I want to move in with her to get away from here or because I want to be with her. A little of both but I want to be with her. So I decided to move. I call her back as fast as I can to tell her the news. I am ecstatic, Julie yes, I will move in with you. I hear happiness in her voice and in the back of my mind I am dreading the upcoming events. I have to tell Josh and he is going to be devastated. Later at home I cook a nice dinner, one that Josh wants and I sit down to tell him the news. I can feel his heart sink and the sad look on his face breaks my heart. He plays it off as if it is nothing and tells me to do what I want. Well, can you tell me what you think, I ask him. He said It’s fine do what you need to do. In my mind I am thinking this is the precise reason why our marriage did not work and will never work. There is no honest communication. Okay was my only reply and I left him to finish his dinner. I lay in bed think about what could be going through his head. Home wreaker is all that I can think about. How could someone give no regard to what is between two people. How could someone be so cold and not care. I don’t understand why HE did not care. He has never been there for me. These thoughts wear me down and I cry in despair for him, for me, for us. How did we get here. Why did he wreak our lives by not giving me the attention I need and deserve.

 
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Lesbian until College Graduation

So this is my new book I am writing.  My last book is still not finished but close it is called "Plain, Ordinary Jane".  Anyways there has been a huge turn in events and I got this huge craving to write about it. So this is my new creation I only started yesterday and I have not gone back through for any corrections, also it's obviously unfinished. The ..... means time laspe.  I will continue to develop the story and summit it to you guys.  Please give me feed back on it.  Let me know what you think the good the bad and all the inbetween.  Thanks

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Lesbian until college graduation … To the critics: call me a hypocrite and criticizes my work but this is a true story. My true life story. My true LOVE story.

 

 

 
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Sorry

Julie I heard this song and I swear it made me think of you.  I am sorry and this song expresses what I feel.

Buckcherry: Sorry

 

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry


This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right

Oh yeah sorry

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry

I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry

 
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Catch Up
Well its been... a month.  Things have been rough here for a while and I did not feel like messing with mindsay.  Now that school is started I don't know if I will have time, however, i will keep in touch.  If you ever wonder about me you can visit fairydustings .  I am sure she has somthing on there about me. 
 
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